rant on - Having a bad day so cannot make progress. It's my 48th birthday and I'm wishing a lot of things were different than they turned out to be. I never got what I what I wanted out of life and even got beat up so bad so many times for so long that I really don't want anything anymore anyway. All the education, the teaching, the research, the work - it all added up to a big fat zero for me. So much for the American Dream... it's a myth. - rant off